09/11/09
A good day.

i love you. i'd never stop for one gasping second. If given the same chance, i'd still give you the chance i gave you. No doubts. There's a dime in a dozen, Than there's one in a million But baby to me you're once in a lifetime. I appreciate whatever times we have spent and i am looking foward to spending my days with you.

All i can do now is wait and continue pouring my hopes.



I WISH , I WISH
UPON THE SHOOTING STAR
You'll be MINE.

theveryfirstdayofour2ndmonth.

Pardon me for my Horrible grammar/ vocab  and etc. I'm stunt to the fact the my english has deteriorate. Simple spelling in fact is horrendous for some unknown reason.My results for the second term sucks balls. Considering the fact i studied. Oh wells. ..... My iphone got stolen. If i catch the mofo who took it i will scratch his penis of his balls.. if that actually makes sense. 

Its been a funny week. All the raging hormones. Ex's reunion kinde thing.  It was nice in some ways. So, we are officially together... Ah huh. 

Its been a wonderful month and i appreciate and cherish every single moment we spent and will spend together.

Like you told me. You never know what would happen in future. All is unpredictable and so i learnt that fact and i guess im starting to put my hopes slightly lower although i don think its really working.. I mean i know i shouldnt but i just do. I really don know. Im sitting at the balcony looking at the sky. It looks well rather plain ..

The sky always gets me thinking.Thinking about you now baby (; And well i miss you for a reason? No. No reasons. Or perhaps yes.! There is a reason to it. .. Maybe its because i love you. Well can you call that a reason? Or maybe its not. Why is it love. WHat is love? Questions leads to questions and well never ending questions... 

The birds are chirping and the Beatles are flying across my balcony .. 

i have questions to my love. But at the same time i want to love and put in my all to it. I want to nurture it and also prove some of the others wrong. 

i guess i always came across to be the fierce one. Well i meant good. Hopefully my friends would get the juice of it (; Argh sometimes it really hurts to screww them up nicely but i have to. And it the end its always me being the "bad" guy in the story. I dont enjoy being the bad guy but i guess its just part of me. haha. I know you guys would laugh to this. 

Urm i always my opinion and view to certain things of whats going on in your life. I guess i always think that im your friend for a reason. It may be god sent you to help me out or vice versa. So whenever i sense anything wrong i would judgewith my own rightful thinking and common sense.. If you're my faithful reader perhaps you would figure out that i always say " Its okay to fail but after i fail the most important things is to get up and be strongger.. " So well i guess in life its not all about guiding some one to TAKE THE RIGHT PATH but to guide them through the paths that they choose and if it happens to be the wrong one, guide them to the right one. 

I would tell you the consequences or hard feelings that you may feel and when i do , i prepare you for the rough journey ahead. Hoping that you would place yourself in right shape to go through it. Well i MAY NOT be always right. So i guess this is the right way to do it. To guide my friends through their rough days and unhappy weeeks or perhaps miserable years. Its all part of life. FEELINGS. its something we all have to go through if not whats there to life eyh? 

Man need to learn fromtheir mistakes, get up strongeer from their failures. 

I guess im not superwoman (: 

I always support my friends in whatever decisions they make but of course before they make them i'd like to warn them about the certain things i think may happen.. THe consequences are for the person to bear. Eveery action you make, you get an EQUAL reaction.. I provide you with choices, paths... BUT in the end you choose them. You hold the key. You made a decision i respect it.. 

Decision Made, I am happy for you.. 

When you feel the way i did. Maybe its time to have alittle chat with yourself. Pray to god. Ask him to guide you and provide you with the strength and power. Always act like what you are. Never be afraid to bring things out/ up for a discussion as it will help hella alot. You wouldnt imagine how it would help.. It does, i tell you. Many relationships lack of honesty. If only they would be honest and shame the devil, allow one another to help to solve problems together, things would end up in a very different way...

If ever you were to fall, FALL back without hesitation.. 

Ps: Im sure i prepared you more than enough for this war (;

Today seems to be "the" day. Baby is starting work in a day. Argh and that would after 3 months after i start. Its going to be a long journey... Oh wells. I love you and i put faith in whatever we will be going through. Its September and apparently its "the" month to tie the knots. E's cousin and Baby's friend are getting married and as well as some other friends...The cousins are currently over, banging on their gameboys or wtv you name them which come to think of i never had when i was younger their age. Lucky them. Kids these days seem to be very pampered with things.. Materialistic. 

They tend to whine on small little issues which was never something to me. I get really pissed off with them considering they are so young and yet so fussy.  Very crude & rude too. 

The holidays wasnt fantastic. Due to the long hours of shifting, packing, cleaning and etc. Though i did have a little time to spare for the boyf. Headed to gardens one of those days to have our short date. Welll it was enough (; I wish for more though.  Catched a movie which sucked. Baby had me buy popcorn which was salted, ewww.! But it was okay.. It was the company that mattered. Iloveyou.Had a great dinner and my day was settled (;  Met Mr. Adrian =x That was the awesome part,haha. Great sarcasm there.... 

Headed home after i got some errands done and hit the sacks (:  Next day we had dinner with the boyf's friend and his chica. It was las carretas ampang. Small little restaurant, exactly like the one in taipan =.= Not much difference. Mike was hilarious although he was abit lame most of the time. Urm...yea. After dinner , decided to catch a movie but due to the timing we had to pick "tht" movie. Better than yesterdays though. Still early so we decided to go for a drink and la bodega it was. Got ourselves each a pine of hoeegarden. It was lovely (; Than we headed home. 

As for yesterday, we went to United Voice to pass Aunty swee lan the funds we raised during the orientation night. Wai yee tagged along. After that we lunched at gardens after passing something to esther. Headed to bread&butter to buy baby's present (; Hope you like it and thank god i got the right size (: I love myself. haha. 

Its a gift from me to you for your very first industrial training during our journey (; & also to encourage you to do better this time, baby (; I love you and i hope you would keep it for a long long long time. I learned something from you. Appreciate what you've got and never ever take it/ things forgranted as they may just disappear or change the next day as things are unpredictable. I love you and i would do my best to not allow the way i feel for you to change. 

i'll stay strong.

Ps: You are the source of my strength, baby. iloveyousomuch

I'm so disappointed. Its just one word that describes it all. I don't exactly know whats happpening to the world. Maybe its just me. You think so? Why is everybody doing things their way? What goes around comes around. Don't you think so? I don't know what you want. Why do you even want to care; What do you care for. There's nothing for you to care . Get lost. In your own dame world. Maybe she's right; they are right. I just never knew you enough. I gave you the "key" tooo early. You're just like the past. And i thought you were different.. Since everything is over, i asked you a few times. Couldn't you just tell the truth, shame the devil... NO, you egoistic arse. Im chuck bass chuck bass. I hate chuck bass since i started watching gossip girl. Maybe it was a sign. You're childish. You cant even lead temptations. You let temptations lead you. And i thought you would let god guide you. 

I dont bother if i was just a replacement. I dont bother anymore. But at least i thought you chose me for some other reason which i thought least i changed you a little. Or maybe lets put it this way, you changed, you did. Everybody noticed the changes but thereafter our breakup, You just let loose. You broke every single one of your promises. I dont care if you broke ours back than but you even broke those you promised mommy especially those which you never use to practice. Argh, what can i say. You're just a typical male. ANOTHER one of those. PLenty in my world. I guess i got over you fast enough because they're too many of you's around that fiddled with my heart. 

I fucking the love the fact i chose dan humphrey over chuck bass. I like to play serena. I hate blair . But maybe in reality i am Blair but too bad im learning to be like serena. So fuck offf. In so long i never used any vulgar language in this blog. This if the first post ever , Fuck yourself.

Th quote you always use. 

Ps: I'd do anything for you baby. Even running to the ends of the earth. I wouldnt leave. Remember what i told you (; I love youh.